no, my dog wont bite you-though she had the right to, man I give her credit, cause she knows I would've let it happen...

7:23 am. Second full shift at the HUB. Yesterday was 6:30-6:30, today is 6:30-7:30. Umm, kinda blows. haha. I don't mind becuase it is money, and it's not like its hard to sit here and check ID's and do the occasional task for Lisa. The only difference between sitting here and sitting around my house is that when I'm home I can SLEEP, which would be nice, but oh well, I'm getting paid. Yeah...I guess that is all I have to say about that. Plus, now I don't have to work until Friday, becuase tomorrow is my TWENTY-FIRST BIRTHDAY, and thursday is my TWENTY-FIRST BIRTHDAY HANGOVER. haha , it's gonna suck, but i'm sure it'll be worth it.

In other news. I've been showing the house for Steve since he lives an hour away, plus I guess is in the process of moving himself. I've shown it 6 or 7 times and had alot of interest. Last night I talked to him on the phone, and he basically wants the applicants to send me their information and then for me to rate them and tell him why I think they would or wouldn't be good applicants. Then he informed me he had to bring up a "tender subject" and said that the neighbors had called him and I assume had gotten together to discuss it...and asked him to rent the house to more "family friendly people". UM- EXCUSE ME? fuck you, seriously. A) you have absolutley no say in what we do, who we have at our house, what cars we park on the residential street that belongs to ALL of us etc etc etc. B) you have ABSOLUTELY no right to call the owner of the house and tell him what kind of people he should rent the house to. C) WE HAVEN'T EVEN DONE ANYTHING WRONG. There could've been soooo much worse people in that house, exhibit a) the guys across the street. It pisses me off so bad, because I have to be here for another month. But on the other hand, it just makes me laugh becuase these people are so pathetic, and rude, and clearly have nothing better to do in their lives then pick on the college kids who live next door. fuckkkkkk it all.

The year in that house couldn't have turned out further than my expectations. Thinking back on a year ago signing that lease, I would've never thought it would turn out like this. I guess that goes to show....one of my worst flaws has always been my tendancy to get my hopes up. Unfortunately I've learned though there are some things, there isn't a whole lot worth getting your hopes up for. I always have expectations about things that I shouldn't. It always ends the same way when its all said and done...I get let down. I don't know if that will ever go away, if eventually after one too many let downs I will start to grow cynical and un trusting. Or if I will remain hopeful, even though I know I shouldn't, and maybe someday be proved that it was all worth it. I have lost a lot of trust in people this year, for reasons no one even knows about... but time after time, I get screwed over. I guess its good to know that I do atleast have a handful of people in my life that I can trust, and that I know wont lose that trust from those people. I dunno, sometimes stuff is just hard. The good news is, not only do I have absolutely no idea where I'm going to move in a month, but all I do know is that I am going to be living with someone or some people who I don't know. Therefore, no expectations at all, so hopefully it will turn out alright...

Wow, this is a long entry. One last story before I leave....our second annual Russell backyard end of the year camping trip happened last friday. It was pretty fun. We did a case race. Team rambles finally got to compete haha. We WON. bitches. but, only by 1 beer, and the other team had one less person than us...however they did have 2 MILITARY MEN, so I'm gonna say they shouldve kicked ass...come on boys this is America, all you need to know how to do is drink haha. We also had a mini edward 40 hands...however it wasnt 40's, they were just cans of bud light, and it was scotch tape. tyler and I are fairly classy people if you DIDNT know.

After the case race, Ty decided he needed more beer, so Brug-sters (yes, i've decided dans name is now brug-sters) got tyler another 24...seriously? That was apparently split between blair jamielynn and ty, though jamie only drank 3, and blair took all hers home with her. so that left tyler with yet another 13 beers. needless to say at the end of the night he was retarded. Highlights of drunk tyler included the entire package of hot dogs that he managed to attempt to cook, yet dropped in the fire instead. watching him be destructive drunk, (throwing chairs and burning things) and then productive drunk (stacking chairs and cleaning up). Not to mention every can he threw at the emptys bag managed to go right in. hahah hilarious. but my FAVORITE moment of the night was when jamie was talking to one of shannons friends about alaska and tyler got up and started stumbling out into the darkness and goes "you know what you should really do! live on a king crab fishing boat for three months! THAT'LL MAKE YOU A MAN" I still have no idea what he was talking about, but it was hilarious. Oh goodness, I think that is the end of my stories. more might come later, since I have a 13 hour shift today, and really nothing at all to do.

Does this remind anyone else of King Tritan from the little mermaid?

Ty at about 4:30am. Can we say too-many-beers? You can't say he's not entertaining, it's why I keep him around ;-)

Closing time...

Well it's official...my Junior year of college is DONE and I'm a senior...reeeeediculous. This time of year is so weird, on one hand I'm glad the year is over, because I get a break from classes, and becuase this semester/year hasnt been that great. On the other hand, who am I kidding, I like school, I'd rather be doing homework than working a shitty mall job, and there've been parts to this semester that have been amazing. I hate to watch all these people I've gotten close to this year slowly pack up and ship out I know they'll be back, some of them only in 1 month, but it seems like so long! It is definitely bitter sweet...

It's also wierd this year becuase I'm not going home. I'm starting work at the HUB today, and by starting I mean I'm already here, and have been since 6:30am (yikes). I'll be working alot the next few weeks to cover Alicia and Rachel, which is fine by me, cause the more money the better right now. I have to find another job becuase this isnt going to be nearly enough hours to keep me busy. Oh and while I'm finding neccessary things...might I find an apartment? Holy hell this has been the process. I have e-mailed over 30 people about over 30 different apartments (not kidding) and NONE have worked out. Considering I only have a month and 5 days left on my lease, I need to get on the stick. I am so stressed out about not knowing where I'm moving to in June. I swear to god if I end up at home this summer I'm going to go fucking insane..legit.

Hm, on other notes, what's going on...oh I'm turning 21 in 5 days AH, so exciting. We're all going camping tonight at Ty's like we did last year. Excited...but hoping a few more people come, cause otherwise I'm not going to be 3rd, or 5th...yes thats right, I will be the SEVENTH wheel. that shit aint right. I have opinions I could insert here, but I suppose I'll refrain...I miss the way things used to be

flashing LIGHTS LIGHTS LIGHTS

So, yesterday was like the most rediculous/crazy/fun day I have had in AWHILE. Ps its the last week of classes, and 1:22 am, clearly i shouldnt be updating my blog..oh well. So I woke up at like 11:30...rare for me, kath and jess were off to the dance team banquet until 2, so i stayed in bed till like 1230 then got up and made myself breakfast and then cleaned up the kitchen, cleaned the stove, emptied trash/organized recycling, plus cleaned up a few messes from this weekend haha, then i was like OKAY and i was all determined to go to the library all day and do work. I had a paper due today for the feminine mystique, and my anthology is due thursday plus a 3 page intro, i have my media presentation tomorrow for macro, and so it goes on and on. So i was like oh yay im gonna go get all this crapola done and be all accomplished. I get to the library and was making myself a schedule on the comps on the second floor when katelyn texts me informing me of a certain presence at the library, and i was like OMG "i am there!" so up to the vista room i frolicked finding anna katelyn and corey, decked out in giant green headphones and blangin white sun glasses, who only ever spoke when the sky changed yelling such things as "the fog!" "the ring" and "circle of light!", she decided that the sky was changing based on horror film titles, then some crows flew by and i had some really intelligent insight about ravens as told by lucas scott on one tree hill....classssy. We also were fairly sure we saw champ swimming out in the lake, and i quoted napoleon dynamite like 20 times "DID YOU KNOW JAPANESE SCIENTISTS PUT DETINATORS AT THE BOTTOM OF LAKE LOCH NESS...TO BLOW NESSIE OUT OF THE WATER" hahahah i love myself...and so brings me to my first fabulous quote of the day "I really wish i had a clone, i feel like i would be really fun to hang out with" hahha katelyn liked that one. so then anna and corey eventually left, we had some visitors...including a group from a class who apparently thought the room WE WERE ALREADY IN was a great place to have a meeting..fuckers.

And then there were two...we were being the biggest tools ever, clearly getting no work done at all, and laughing HISTARICALLY at EVERYTHING. it was amazing. i managed to copy 4 poems into my anthology, and though we left it out...we found a pretty amazing piece of literature that went a little something like this...

America
America America
America America

yeah, last time i checked, that wasnt a word, 2 year old children could spell out more profound poetry with there got damn alpha-bits.

so after 900 years went by, and by that i mean 3.5 hours, off to al's we went to fetch some iced cream. alica was none too pleased with her nonfat no sugar FRO YO for over 3 dollars when i got a scoop of cookie dough for under 2. wooops. nothing too exhilerating happened there, except for tinas story about finding me standing in the hall at brentons on friday doing absolutely nothing all by myself...oh alcohol, thanks. and then i got agitated because the yonder sunset was pretty but we couldnt see it cause we were not atop the hill and we were in freakin AL'S so i go "we sit at the top of the library for 4 hours looking at the sky and the second the sun starts to set we leave to go sit in AL'S, FOR WHAT? so we can look at the damn red booths! and red hats! and red shirts!!! ITS LIKE AN EFFIN TARGET IN HERE" ....anna liked that one, and we got some special looks, but laughed alot..which is pretty much all thats worth anything anyway.

after als we decided that we were not done hanging out, and ventured to spinner. katelyn and anna did laundry, i occupied myself trying to climb into a dryer, contimplating how funny it would be to find someone sleeping on the shelf in the laundry room, and doing leaps in front of all the doors all the way down the 6th floor hallway. then we sat there cracking up about life until 2 in the mornign, including an ab work out, a flashing lights dance sesh, and lots of talk sex with sue.

it
was
rediculous
AND amazing

and i wasnt even the slightest bit mad that i had 4 sentences on my paper written. i tried to get up this morning and write it but slept instead, so whipped it out in a little over an hour between classes...it was magnificent.

all in all it was probably one of the best days of all semester, we just laughed like histarically for about 12 hours, it was sooo much fun and i was in the best mood all day today, we had our first OL meeting which was awesome, and our final champ dinner, and got to watch a movie with mcdreamy in it during mash, what the hell else can you really ask for. i dont know. okay, i need to go to bed becuase more fun play times are to be had tomorrow and i must keep my energry high! haha

looooooove

Oh how the years go by, and oh how the love brings tears to my eyes...

So this morning I was trying to send an e-mail and my mailbox was over its size limit so I was attempting to go through and erase old e-mails...long story short I stumbled upon the emails i sent to Al when she was in Fiji first semester freshman year....holy crap. First of all, that seriously seems like a different life. It was only a little over 2.5 years ago but I am worlds away from the person I was then. All the e-mails were filled with me freaking out about growing up basically...boy drama, norwegien boy obsession, dorm drama as always, it was hilarious. I was such a baby! holy crap I've grown up so much since then. It is so crazy how different someone can be from freshman to junior year. Most of the people I knew then I dont even know now...its wierd how different things can be. All the norwegiens, nicole, mandy, daniela, abbie etc etc etc dont go to school here anymore. I still see Jared and Chris, and Betsy sometimes. It is just so strange. Time is flying, thats for sure...

As for now, its Friday afternoon, rainy, I'm excited for tonight....exciting potentials, but I'm trying not to get excited, cause we all know how often I get let down...I dont need any more let downs, thats for sure. Okay I no longer feel intrigued to write, movie/nap time :)

I'm just gonna put this out there....

This is a picture of my parents....
They are fairly average people. A little country bumpkin-esque as you can tell by the mere fact that they are sitting on a tractor.....I would also like to note that they over analyze everything, and that my mother spent 6 months trying to decide what cell phone to get.....Now, that being said, I would like to show you what my mother purchased YESTERDAY, by herself....


Oh yes, my mother bought a mustang....WHAT? and i quote...

me: "Mom, are you and Dad going through a midlife crisis?"
mom: "ohhh I dunno"

now I'm going through changes changes

Oh it's been a crazy year. I've been inspired by the lovely Jamielynn to start a blog. I used to do one in highschool, but havent in years. We all know I talk enough, I might as well jot some of it down from time to time...plus this way all my loves that are currently scattered across the world can keep up with all my insanity.

So in a nutshell....my junior year in college is coming to a close. That is quite possibly the most rediculous thing I've ever heard. This year has gone by so fast- this semester in particular. I seriously feel like I just got off that bus on new years eve landing me back in Burlington, and now it is April, I have 6 days of classes and 4 of finals and I'm done...then in 22 short days, I will be 21!!!!! Oh my I am so excited, should be crazy (crazier than normal anyway).

This year hasn't been an easy one. It started with a pretty sharp turn in the road, one I wasn't counting on that forced me to regroup. Since then, pretty much nothing has gone as planned. Fall semester started and ended good, the middle was a little bit not so fabulous. Ty was in Texas for the good majority of it, and let me tell you, the loss of a sidekick isnt easy. I made it through though, and we've had a good spring semester, a few bumps in the road, but it's all turned out really good, I am so lucky to have such an amazing best friend, and on top of that, I'm so lucky to have the rest of my best friends too. I feel so spoiled sometimes when I complain, because seriously? Look at what I have. I'm entirely blessed, and most of the time I know it. Theres been a few things that havent gone so hot this year, but some have gone incredible. I have become alot closer with some people, and made a ton of new awesome friends. We have a good time, I laugh every single day of my life...mostly I am happy- what more can I ask for?

Lately theres been some intense shit going on in the rest of my life. Some family drama...which isnt easy when you arent there. Also, Melissa got back to Ireland the other day from traveling for two weeks, and in attempt to keep her posted on my crazy life I sent her an IM. She had found out the day before that Wallace, one of the triplets from RI, one who she used to adore, died on Friday in a snowboarding accident in Aspen. It is so wierd, my first reaction is complete shock, my second reaction is pain that I can't be with her right now. If she was at stonehill I wouldve gotten in my car and gone that instant. All you can really do in a sitaution like this is be there, and I cant be there right now cause she is so far away and that kills me. Thirdly I just started thinking about how suddenly things can change. I obviously didn't know Wallace personally, but just flashed back to 7th or 8th grade when Melissa and I were sitting in my room in Yarmouth watching Wallace's boarding videos giggling like the little girls that we were. At that point we were planning the wedding, and how cool it would be to have patterns of MM + WW in a heart. If you had told us then that this is how it would end....oh man. That seems like a lifetime ago to be quite honest, back when things were simple...or seemed it anyway. Times just get so hard sometimes, and if I have learned anything this year, it is that I will make it through anything, but it is still hard to deal with. I just wish for once, things were okay with everyone I love and care about. I guess maybe it will happen someday, if not, what other choice to we have then to just keep going? If things aren't perfect, you might as well strive for them to be that way....

on other notes, over the next few weeks I have to find an apartment, a second job for this summer, and internship for next fall, do my taxes, finish all projects/finals, and hopefully find someone to move in with me for the month of May...oh and party the hell out of the end of the semester ;) Yeah you'd think I would be freaking out, but I'm not...I try to take everything one day at a time, otherwise I think my head would actually explode, so instead...I'm chill for the moment

did I mention that it has been gloriously nice and sunny and spring like outside alllll week? Cause its making my life extrodinary