Oh it's been a crazy year. I've been inspired by the lovely Jamielynn to start a blog. I used to do one in highschool, but havent in years. We all know I talk enough, I might as well jot some of it down from time to time...plus this way all my loves that are currently scattered across the world can keep up with all my insanity.
So in a nutshell....my junior year in college is coming to a close. That is quite possibly the most rediculous thing I've ever heard. This year has gone by so fast- this semester in particular. I seriously feel like I just got off that bus on new years eve landing me back in Burlington, and now it is April, I have 6 days of classes and 4 of finals and I'm done...then in 22 short days, I will be 21!!!!! Oh my I am so excited, should be crazy (crazier than normal anyway).
This year hasn't been an easy one. It started with a pretty sharp turn in the road, one I wasn't counting on that forced me to regroup. Since then, pretty much nothing has gone as planned. Fall semester started and ended good, the middle was a little bit not so fabulous. Ty was in Texas for the good majority of it, and let me tell you, the loss of a sidekick isnt easy. I made it through though, and we've had a good spring semester, a few bumps in the road, but it's all turned out really good, I am so lucky to have such an amazing best friend, and on top of that, I'm so lucky to have the rest of my best friends too. I feel so spoiled sometimes when I complain, because seriously? Look at what I have. I'm entirely blessed, and most of the time I know it. Theres been a few things that havent gone so hot this year, but some have gone incredible. I have become alot closer with some people, and made a ton of new awesome friends. We have a good time, I laugh every single day of my life...mostly I am happy- what more can I ask for?
Lately theres been some intense shit going on in the rest of my life. Some family drama...which isnt easy when you arent there. Also, Melissa got back to Ireland the other day from traveling for two weeks, and in attempt to keep her posted on my crazy life I sent her an IM. She had found out the day before that Wallace, one of the triplets from RI, one who she used to adore, died on Friday in a snowboarding accident in Aspen. It is so wierd, my first reaction is complete shock, my second reaction is pain that I can't be with her right now. If she was at stonehill I wouldve gotten in my car and gone that instant. All you can really do in a sitaution like this is be there, and I cant be there right now cause she is so far away and that kills me. Thirdly I just started thinking about how suddenly things can change. I obviously didn't know Wallace personally, but just flashed back to 7th or 8th grade when Melissa and I were sitting in my room in Yarmouth watching Wallace's boarding videos giggling like the little girls that we were. At that point we were planning the wedding, and how cool it would be to have patterns of MM + WW in a heart. If you had told us then that this is how it would end....oh man. That seems like a lifetime ago to be quite honest, back when things were simple...or seemed it anyway. Times just get so hard sometimes, and if I have learned anything this year, it is that I will make it through anything, but it is still hard to deal with. I just wish for once, things were okay with everyone I love and care about. I guess maybe it will happen someday, if not, what other choice to we have then to just keep going? If things aren't perfect, you might as well strive for them to be that way....
on other notes, over the next few weeks I have to find an apartment, a second job for this summer, and internship for next fall, do my taxes, finish all projects/finals, and hopefully find someone to move in with me for the month of May...oh and party the hell out of the end of the semester ;) Yeah you'd think I would be freaking out, but I'm not...I try to take everything one day at a time, otherwise I think my head would actually explode, so instead...I'm chill for the moment
did I mention that it has been gloriously nice and sunny and spring like outside alllll week? Cause its making my life extrodinary
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