Hold on baby, you're losin it, the waters high, you're jumpin into it and letting go, and no one knows that you cry and you dont tell anyone...

I've been really sad lately. Within the past week, I dunno...something just doesn't feel right. I guess it is just all the change that has happened lately, I never deal with it well. The school year ended, a ton of my friends are gone home for the summer which totally sucks. Quite a few of my close friends are still here though, which is good, but it still feels awfully empty around here. The campus is deserted, and strange. Jess and Kathleen both moved out. Whitney moved in for the month, but it is wierd without the other two. It isn't like we had the best of years, but it still feels empty, and different. I finally found an apartment, which is exciting, now I can't wait to move out of this house. 24 days and counting, it couldn't come fast enough. Again, another change, but atleast it is a good one. Moving will be a nice distraction, I need distraction. My mind has been way too busy lately, alot of stuff is running around up there and will not stop. So basically my over-thinking, overanalyzing just runs around in circles and never helps anything. Frustrated.

Anna and I sat around the other day and watched old grey's episodes, it was glorious. I think I'll just live vicariously through fictional people so I don't have to focus on my own retardedly boring, mundane life. Oh did I mention like all of the episodes at some point made me cry? I also decided it would be a GREAT idea to go see Made of Honor the other night with Anna. A chick flick about a guy and a girl who are best friends....seriously Elizabeth? Good life choice. Yeah, cried pretty much the entire movie. I miss the way things were....Frustrated.

Too many things/people are bugging me lately. Believe me, the need to be ambiguous right now is killing me. I would like nothing more than to rip a couple people a new one with words right now, but I'm not supposed to- it's rude. I am just supposed to smile and pretend everything is fine. Too bad all I wan't to do right now is scream, and tell some people what I really think, maybe they would stop being so naive, and open their eyes.....Frustrated.