people irritate me

So though I haven't been aaaaaaas angry as I usually am lately, lets face it...this is still me we're talking about. So in the past few weeks I have discovered a few things that freaking drive me INSANE.

1) When jack ass horrible drivers cut you off in traffic...blatantly and then wave to you like you just did them some grand favor by slamming your breaks on so as not to slam into the back of them...yeah YOUR WELCOME ASS HOLE. I mean seriously. First of all I let someone into traffic yesterday on my own accord, the man proceeded to wave into his rear veiw mirror for like 10 minutes until i acknowledged that he was infact waving and thanking me for letting him in. this is the only reason I knew what the next ass hole in a blue mini van was doing when he veered across 3 lanes, lingered until i waved, and then veered 2 more to get onto the highway. douche baaaag.

2) When you are standing in line at a grocery store, or any sort of check out counter at any sort of store...and the person behind you is IN YOUR BUBBLE. jesus freakin christ. I just want to turn around and be like "EXCUSE ME, YOU'RE NOT GOING TO LOSE YOUR PLACE IN LINE, PLEASE STEP BACK" it fucking drives me in-fucking-sane. The other day i was at marshalls or something and some ginormously fat lady (sorry, its mean, but its true and she was annoying) was flaling around looking at the sale items near the counter or something and kept careening her purse into my ass. i was so fucking irritated i wanted to grab her bag and hit her over the head with it. Then yesterday i had to go to Dicks to get ping pong balls and new pool cues for the SLC and the lady fucked up rining them out and had to re-do the whole thing and the guy behind me was like raping my side he was standing so close. ahhhhhhhhhhhhh it is so annoying

3) Third and finally. When the schedule on the wall says the hours are "6:30-2 and 4-7" it means that the gym will re-open at 4:00" It means that when you come in at 3:40 and stare at the dark gym looking confused...yeah...we arent open yet. we dont open early, we open AT FOUR. and also, one last thing, when you call at 5pm on a monday and ask "what are your hours" and i say 6:30-2" why the sweet FUCK is your response "so you arent open now?". no fuck tard, learn to tell time

Under summer stars...

Things are getting better.....finally. Seemingly atleast, stuff has started to turn around. I've moved into my new place and I'm getting settled in. I basically decided I was sort of over the whole angry thing. So I did what I could and I finally fixed some relationships that were in definite need of it. I'm so glad. Also, I have some potential on the horizon that came out of no where....I guess I'll just see where that goes. But long story short...things are getting better. :)

The urge to run, the restlessness, the heart of stone I sometimes get, the things I do for foolish pride, the me that's never satisfied...

I find it rather pathetic that my life has been so stressful/ blah lately that when I just went on facebook and discovered that all my bumper stickers had been erased...I nearly cried. Seriously? I am so sick of being so un-freaking-satisfied with everything. I am finall getting control of some finanical stuff, moved out of my house, moving into my new place next week. it just...never seems enough. I'm trying to make it all be enough, but I can't seem to. I am really sick of a lot of things the way they currently are. I have always been so fucking hard on myself about everything. I try to cut myself some slack, and realize that the mere fact that I am worried about the things I am worried about means that I am a decent person. I just...don't like the person I think I am sometimes. I want to not like some people I like, and I want to like some people I seemingly dont, because there is no real reason for both. I want to stop kicking myself in the ass for wanting things to be even remotely close to the way they used to be. I want things to actually get back to that. I want to not be so bitter. I want alot of things.