We're always having waaay more fun than it makes sense to be having....

I'm trying my best to live in the moment. The moments that have been coming my way are amazing. As much as I try to be eternally optamistic, I know that part of me sees the gray in things. The gray, as of now, is that I just know things can't stay so good forever. Here I am on the brink of my senior year of college. How did I get here? I hate to sound cliche but it seems like yesterday I was getting ready for my FRESHMAN year. Now I am suddenly supposed to be growing up, knowing what I wan't to do, being ready to graduate. Truth is...I'm not. I think part of me will never grow up, and I like it that way. It isn't hard to realize why older people say college was the best years of their life. If "they" had half as much fun as I have, I'm sure it'd be hard to beat. I'm gonna try my best though. I really dont see the point in being so serious about life. What does it really do for you, honestly? When I am old, I am going to love my wrinkles. It means I showed emoition, and got countless pretty kick ass tans. You can be damn sure I am going to have wrinkles around my eyes, not from crying, but from laughing, and from laughing so hard I end up crying. I guess what I am trying to say is that I am going to make the absolute best of my senior year, and know that whats ahead will be just as amazing if I make it that way. In short, I adore my life. I love the ups, and the downs. Though theres been a bit too much rain this summer, it makes Vermont green. The kind of green that waits for the blue sky days to errupt, and glow.

One of those days was this past Saturday. Jamielynn, Whitney and I went driving. Jokingly around exit 12 we said "lets just drive until we see a scenic overlook". Well, my friend, I will have you know that for as many times as you see those words posted on a sign when aimlessly driving, they are rather hard to stumble upon by chance. Though we never found an official scenic overlook, we definitly enjoyed the scenery along the way. I tried to snap like 400 pictures of a "mountinous landscape" but usually hit a dip in the road at about the time the flash clicked, and ended up with trees. Long story short, we drove on 89 until we got bored and continued onto 91, exited randomly because we had to pee, and landed ourselves in chesterfield at Kathleen's house. Who knew abnormally large straws, un-attractively rolled up sleeves, insanely loud HORRIBLE singing, and screaming outlandishly could provide us with such glorious entertainment. I. Had. So. Much. Fun. Days like that, aside from many things, make me really wish I didn't love Jamielynn so much. She is leaving for a semester abroad in Ireland starting in a few weeks. Let me tell you, not thrilled. I adore her. We have had our share of ups and downs, espeically considering freshman year we "hated each other" for really no reason at all. That is probably my favorite drunken friend I have ever made. "Hi, why do you hate me" "what? becuase you hate ME" "i do not" "i didn't call you a whore" "can we be friends please" "OKAY". Oh the rest is history. I am so happy that she gets to experience Ireland, but sooooo sad she wont be here for 4 months. Oh good, now I'm tearing up, sitting at the hub, typing on my blog...sad day Elizabeth. I can't cry..becuase then she'll cry...and we look FAT WHEN WE CRY. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Love you darling.





On other notes. Justin finally closed on his condo!!! So happy for him. As of 4pm Friday he is officially a home owner. While I was off galavanting through the VT countryside, he and Ty were moving all his stuff into his new place. Yesterday I did my good girlfriend duties and went shopping with him for things for his house. "I don't know how dan did this alone, its so much easier with a girl..you made me a list! you knew just what to get! man, that didn't take long at all". hahahahhaha oh man. We went to wal mart, and sears, and then Burlington bedrooms, where I made him (and by made him, i mean merely suggested he try the pillow top mattress, and in turn, with 5 seconds of laying on it, bought it) purchase the MOST comfortable bed I think I have ever slept on. I love my bed, but his pretty much puts mine to shame.

All in all. Life is good. Summer is winding down, but the year is sure to be a good one. Also, unbelievably, a countdown that started at 37, but really sinc last april, is down to 2. On wednesday at noon I will be departing to the Manchester Airport for Caroline's 3:00 arrival. Words can really not do justice to how excited I am to see her. After everything that has happened this year, she is still one of my best friends, and I absolutely adore her. As much as it sucks that after a week which I am sure will go by all kinds of way too fast...she will return south, I am so glad I get a week with her. Life takes us all different places, a fact I need to get used to, considering a year from now is nothing but unknown to me and all the people I love. I just try to realize, and hold onto the fact that the memories we make, and the people we make them with, are things we will never lose.

I'm a lucky girl to have so much, and so many wonderful people in my life.