And so the year began. Orientation was long and tiring...it's finally over. I had a great group of students though, which is awesome. Some things just have worn me very very thin. Classes have been okay so far. None are really getting my attention to what would be really great. My teachers for some reason seem thouroughly disinterested in students, teaching, and life in general. I have 18 credits this semester...it's gonna be interesting. Hopefully I can pull it off without getting too stressed, and still having a little bit of fun. This weekend will be my first to relax in about three weeks. Unfortunately the only reason why I am going to be able to relax is because I have opted out of the CHAMP retreat this year. I am too tired out and I don't think I can handle it. It really sucks. Especially because a huge number of the people I spend all my time with are going to be there. However, there will also be a few that wouldn't make it fun for me, and there will be plenty left here to play with :) I guess I am just a little overwhelmed right now. Once I get my schedule figured out and get back settled into everything, I'm sure I will be fine.
I've defintiely had to make some hard decisions this week. Even though they suck, and I have had to give up some things that I am not entirely sure I want to give up...I know deep down I made the right choices. The retreat...wouldn't go well, I just know it. As for the boy...I just know I've got too much right now. I didn't think it wuold be this hard. I just try to tell myself that if I keep feeling like this, and realize I made a mistake...then maybe we can try again. If not, I will know I made the right choice. Still...it's hard. Overall, my heads in a million different places right now, I'm just waiting for the dust to settle.
Thursday, September 4, 2008
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